That’s what Joshua is – a micro-preemie! It sounds kind of like the name of a science experiment to me. Then again, I didn’t really do that great in science, so what do I know?
Thank you for your prayers. It’s been great knowing how many people want Josh to be well and strong. And I’ve heard so many stories of people in our situation whose children grew up to be big and buff and that’s nice to hear, too :)
Josh is doing well! He is mostly stable. Bp is good – he’s still on meds for that but it stopped fluctuating so much. His little heart is beating strong and he is only using 25% oxygen, which means he needs almost no extra oxygen to help him. He is enjoying his baby spa and getting all cozy and warm. They said in a few days I can put a little hat on him and give him one of his blankets so he can feel at home. My Mamaw made him a tiny one and I think it will make him feel better!
I got to hold his hand again last night. This time he responded and wrapped his little micro fingers around my finger! I know it’s a reflex but I like to think that he knows I’m there and he’s glad to see me. Daniel held his hand, too, and is teaching him about physics. Never too early, I guess.
Daniel and I are okay. It’s a roller coaster of emotions. I’d heard that phrase before but I didn’t fully appreciate it until this week. In the same hour I am elated, devastated, angry, excited, glad, and confused. That’s the hardest part – not knowing how I’ll react. Sometimes when I leave Josh I sob. Other times I am overjoyed to have seen him and can’t stop smiling. It’s weird and I guess I’ll either get used to it or I’ll be more consistent.
But we’re hanging in there. Thank you again for the prayers and cards and messages. We read every single comment and it is really uplifting to see how many people care. I’ll update again when we have some more info.